Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Summer fun

Gosh... I am terrible at blogging these days.  Since I last posted in January, Christian has turned 4 and then 4 1/2, we completed our adoption home study, and have had a wonderful summer! Christian's last day of Pre-K was yesterday but he wasn't able to go.  He came home sick on Monday so he also stayed home yesterday.  This morning my parents picked him up and they headed to the beach.  John and I are going to a concert tonight and then driving down tomorrow.  Christian starts 4-K on Monday. sniff... sniff...

1. Christian turned 4 on 2/6/16! His stats were:
       43.75 inches tall (>97%)
       41.5 lbs (90%)

2.  We completed our home study in March. So far no one has seen our book. It's hard to hope and pray for a baby via adoption b/c it feels like you're hoping and praying to break up an original family. In a perfect world all mothers and fathers would be able to parent their children. There would be no children to adopt. However, this isn't a perfect world. I pray that if a women chooses to place her child that she then chooses us to raise him/her. Then I'll continue to pray for her to have peace with her decision.

3.  I turned 39. EEEEK! Thirty Nine! That is almost F-O-R-T-Y! I won't tell you my stats ;)

3(a). Then John turned 39! He's a month behind me.

4. Yia Yia & Papou came to visit!

5. Christian turned 4 1/2 on August 6th. He was so proud! He told everybody! Right now he is obsessed with Ghostbusters (the original) and acts out full scenes from the movie.  It's so funny.
His 4 1/2 stats:
     45 1/4 inches tall
     44 lbs

5.  Tristan's first day of college is today! Let that sink in! Tristan is in college! CRAZY!

6. This is a picture from the doctor's office yesterday. Christian fell down and cracked his head on the way to the doctor. I lost about a month of my life when I saw/heard how hard he hit his head...He was a champ and only cried for a minute.

Here are more pics from this super fun summer!

He LOVES costumes!

We went to see a movie at a historical theater with a friend. While we were there they got to pet the policeman's horse.

He had a sleepover
He passed his swim test! He can tread water 30 seconds and swim the length of the pool.
Tristan's last softball game. She went out with a bang and won the state championship

So much more has happened but this is a good start. I'm going to take this blog private soon.  Christian is getting older and I wouldn't want to embarrass him one day by having his friends find a blog with intimate details of his childhood. If you would like to follow my blog after I take it private; email me and I'll send you a password.


Thursday, January 21, 2016

The Process

The adoption process is overwhelming and seems to take forever. We started this time around in October. We have completed mounds of paperwork, background checks, marriage assessments and several interviews. I'm finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel. We have two more home visits, a conference and Tristan's interview. That's about it. There are few small paperwork ends to tie up but we are more than halfway there. She said we could be shown to families by the beginning of March. Eeeek! Exciting! But then the real wait begins. When will our baby find us?? Only God knows.

I asked C some questions tonight. So funny.

1. What is something I always say to you? Thank you

2. What makes me happy? Me listening

3. What makes me sad? Me not listening

4. How do I make you laugh? Tell me jokes

5. What was I like as a child? Huggy

6. How old am I? 25

7. How tall am I? This tall (hands above head)

8. What is my favorite thing to do? Play

9. What do I do when you're not here? Work

10. What am I really good at? Playing

11. What am I not very good at? I don't know

12. What do I do for a job?

13. What is my favorite food? Quinoa

14. What do you enjoy doing with me? Playing


Tuesday, December 29, 2015

The Good Stuff

The past 10 months had some bumps in the road BUT there were a LOT of good times! We spent a wonderful summer together as a family.  We took trips to the beach, pretty much lived at the pool and spent lots of quality time with friends and family.

Christian has grown before our eyes from a toddler to a strong boy.  He is seriously the sweetest and most caring child.  He likes to wrestle, work out and play with dad. He has realized that Dad is pretty cool. He says he wants to help people when he grows up.  I asked if he wants to be a policeman so he can fight the bad guys and he said, "No. I want to be just like my dad. What does he do again?"  I could just eat him up. He is still a Mama's boy too though.  While I have been healing from surgery he has doted and loved on me.  I'm not saying there aren't normal three year old hard times but they are pretty rare.

Perfectly shows his personality. He walked down Christmas morning and pointed at his Santa presents saying, "for me?"
He got drums from Granna & Pop
On Christmas Day he made three wishes into a fountain:
1. For a baby brother
2. For Dad to get a real dagger
3. For Mommy to feel all better

Which leads me to our next adventure... John and I have decided to adopt another baby!  I always knew I wanted another child but I thought we would adopt an older child. When I get pregnant this summer and then lost the baby it made me realize I want another baby.  And Christian has been talking about a baby brother for years.  Hopefully he'll be ok if it turns out to be a baby sister. 
We started the homestudy process in October and should be done by the end of February.  After that we'll just wait for a lovely lady to pick us to raise her child. The agency says it could be anywhere from 6 months to four years.

I also got some great news just today.  My lab results came back for the irregular cells in my bladder. No cancer! Yay!  He said they're due to inflammation.  I have decided to try to follow an anti-inflammatory diet. A lot of my issues seem to point back to inflammation so it can't hurt to try it out. I am very fortunate that I can eat pretty much whatever I want without gaining much weight; however, that doesn't mean I'm healthy.  I LOVE sweets which are the #1 no-no food for inflammation.  This is going to be tough but I need to try to do better so I'm healthy for my boys.

Here's hoping that 2016 will bring us all love and blessings!


Friday, December 11, 2015

So... It's Been A While

I know... I know... I stopped writing.  I'll blame it on a busy life with a 3 year old.  Or I could say that there hasn't been that much going... but that wouldn't be true.  A lot has happened over the past 10 months.  There were some sad, stressful, hard times but many, many more happy times.

Let me start with the most recent.  I had a hysterectomy last Thursday.  I have had a lot of issues throughout my life so my doctor has been trying to get me to do it for years.  I had a hard time with it though.  It was so final.  There was only a 1% chance that I would ever be able to have a baby but at least there was a chance.  Now there is no chance. NONE.

What finally made my decision was, ironically, getting pregnant.  I spontaneously achieved a pregnancy this summer.  John and I were so excited but (of course) scared.  All of my appointments went well at the beginning and everything seemed to be like a text book pregnancy.  It was at around 6 weeks that I went in for an ultrasound.  They were hoping to see a heartbeat but there wasn't one.  And the baby was measuring very small.  They told me not to worry; that the timing could have been off.  But I was sure of my dates.  I went back a week later and there still wasn't a heartbeat.  However, the baby was still growing.  I had to wait another week and then another.  By nine weeks pregnant there was no hope without a heartbeat.  I tried to wait a little longer but my body wouldn't miscarry naturally.  It was hanging on... but there's a risk of leaving dead cells in the uterus. We scheduled a DNC and did genetic testing.  It was a girl with a chromosome abnormality.  She had the same abnormality that our other girl baby had from seven years ago.  The decision was made shortly after that.  I had been terribly sick for weeks and lost half of my summer.  I decided I was done.  Obviously John and I aren't supposed to have children this way and that's ok.  We have a loving, handsome, kind, funny, thoughtful, as close to perfect as you can get little boy.

We grieved our daughter and then made the decision.  Which brings us back to my hysterectomy last Thursday.  It wasn't terrible.  It was a single-site robotic procedure.  They only had to cut my belly button. Amazing! They removed my left ovary, right tube, uterus and cervix. They only left the right ovary so I wouldn't go into immediate menopause.  I also had some endometriosis on my bladder and kidneys.  She cleaned it up and noticed some abnormal cells on my bladder.  I have an appointment later this month with a urologist to see if I need further testing.  She was pretty sure it wasn't cancerous but if left untreated it could possibly turn to cancer.  There was (and still is) some pain but not as bad as I thought it would be.  I was up a little too much yesterday so I was in some pain last night.  John and I went to Christian's school concert today so I was hurting a good bit during/after that too.  As long as I take it easy it's not too bad.

I started with most of the sad stuff that has happened over the past ten months.  My next post will be about the happiness.

Sweet boy is front row center


Sunday, February 8, 2015

3rd Birthday

Christian turned 3 Friday!  THREE!!  How did that happen?  He's also 3 going on 10.  He seems so much older.  He's so sweet and funny and smart and athletic and... perfect.  He's just perfect.

His stats at 3 years old
Height: 40 1/2 inches (96%)
Weight: 35 lbs (80%)
Shoe Size: 10
He's fully potty trained and has been for a while.
He loves everything big boy: power rangers, TMNT, star wars, super heroes

The doctor said that since he's so tall at three it's a pretty good indicator that he'll be tall as an adult.  We also discussed how big his tonsils are and how he snores and has labored breathing when he sleeps.  We've been referred to an ENT and she's pretty sure they'll recommend to remove his tonsils and adenoids.  Poor fella.  I hope this helps his breathing and his sleeping.  He has never been a good sleeper.  She also said they could be the reason his speech is a bit delayed.   He's pretty nasally and doesn't enunciate very well.  He knows words that you wouldn't think a three year would know but he doesn't pronounce them correctly.  His Ks come out as Ts and he drops the S at the beginning of words... Peakers instead of Speakers. I can understand about 90% of what he says but I think strangers might have a hard time.
He was such a big boy at the doctor.  The nurse pricked his finger and he didn't even flinch.  He was so curious about what she was doing.  He just wanted to watch and ask her all about what she was doing and WHY?  That's his word of choice these days... why.

He's a bit too big for his costume but he's still rocking it!

Showing his muscles

His school party.  He picked his little friend, Sophie, to be his sun.

Opening his birthday present at the doctor's office.  He got a power rangers costume.

Picnic in the park

3 weeks and 4 days post PRK - I'm seeing fairly well now.  Sometimes I don't even notice it.  When I went to the doctor last week I was seeing 20/25 in both eyes.  So they're almost there but I'm still on steroid drops.  He said that once I stop those I would get that last little bit of clarity.  That's what I'm missing right now... sharpness.


Saturday, January 31, 2015

2 Weeks Post PRK

Things are going pretty smoothly for the eyes.  They feel great and I only have a little light sensitivity.  I still have a good bit of blurriness though.  I know they are better than they were a week ago but it's slow progress.  I can't wait for clear vision again.  I would say it's a little bit better than before I had the surgery without my glasses.  The weird thing is that before the surgery if I got closer to something I could see it more clearly.  That's not the case right now.  Even if something is really close it's still a little bit blurry.

I have been sick since Tuesday and I'm sure that's not helping my progress.  I had the bright idea of trying the nettipot.  If you are wondering what happens when you pour saline up a completely blocked nostril... the answer is, the water (and mucus) will try to come out of your tear duct into your eyeball.  It is GROSS and burns.  Don't try it!

C and John are both doing great.  C had this cold a couple of weeks ago but he's much better now.  Some funny things he says nowadays:

We fight about who loves who more.  He'll say, "I love you more! Now that's enough! I don't want to hear another word about it!"  Too cute.
He loves power rangers and karate kicks and chops like they do.
At the park today: He said, "Excuse me little boy" to a 4 year old.  That kid said, "I'm not little, I'm 4!  You're little!"  In Christian's mind he is at least 8.
He is definitely in the "Why" phase.  I hear "Why?" at least 1,000 times/day.
I CANNOT believe he is going to be three next week!

Tristan is doing well too.  She bought her prom dress today.  She starts softball practice for school in two weeks.

My boys

Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Days 5 - 7

Day 5 - Went to the doctor to have the contacts removed.  I was still having a lot of irritation, light sensitivity and dryness. It was the first time out of the house since Friday... And out of my dark bedroom during daylight.  I spent most of Saturday and Sunday hissing like a vampire at anyone who opened the door and let in a little sunlight.  I was hoping some of that would be alleviated by removing the contacts.  It was!  I haven't been able to wear contacts for more than an hour EVER so wearing them for 5 days was horrible!  Everything was still really blurry but in a weird way.  If I really tried to focus on something I could see it pretty clearly but I couldn't see anything else clearly.  So my vision tested at 20/25 but there's no way that's what it really is.  It's like opening your eyes under water.

Day 6 - Light sensitivity is better and the irritation is almost completely gone.  Still pretty blurry.  I would say my vision is at about 60%.  I went back to work but had to blow up my monitors and wear sunglasses.  I was a movie star!

Day 7 - One week!  Blurriness is about the same but light sensitivity is much better.  I didn't have to wear sunglasses inside today. Yay!  When I woke up this morning there was about 3 seconds of crystal clearness.  I freaked out thinking I was healed!!  But it didn't last.  Hoping for at least 5 seconds tomorrow. :)

I'll only post every week or two now that we're past the first week.

C was sick Monday with a stomach bug so he stayed home with Granna & Pop Tuesday.  I know they had a great time!  He was back at school today karate chopping bad guys.  He loves some Power Rangers right now.


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