Saturday, February 27, 2010
Here's a pic of Julie and my little work station.
Back to my story:
We left her house at 6 pm to go pick up some sushi. Seems like an easy enough task! We went to a Thai place where they told us they only had sushi on Thursday nights. So she decided to order a couple of meals and then we would go by and pick up a little bit of sushi from another place. After waiting 30 min and the food STILL wasn't out she decided to call in the sushi order to save some time. 15 min later we finally got our food and were headed to the sushi place. I usually eat at 6:30 or 7:00 and by this time it was 7:00. If you know me, you know I can't go more than 2 to 3 hours without eating! We arrived at the sushi place 30 min after she called it in. It wasn't ready! We waited there another 30 min! Every single "Jersey Shore" want to be guy must have been at that sushi place. They were like sharks circling their prey. At this time Julie looks at me and says she needs to go by McDonald's to get Austin something. I'm about to lose it at this point so I told her to go and I would wait for the sushi by myself. I got the order about 5 min later and ran outside to get away from the vulchers. I could see the big M from where I was. I called Julie and she said she hadn't even made it to the window to order. I contemplated sitting down right there and eating some sushi. But I'm from Tuscaloosa and Murphy's Law proves that if I did that then somebody I know would walk by and see the poor girl sitting on the sidewalk eating her sushi alone. What happened to her since high school?? No! I couldn't chance that. So I took off walking with to-go bag in hand. I could have made it to McDonald's by the time she left if I had made this decision a little earlier. But as it worked out she picked me up in the parking lot of the Bojangles! haha! We finally made it back to her house at 8pm. It took 2 hours to get some sushi so I sure am glad that it was tasty!!
We get Tristan today! I'm not sure what we're going to do but hopefully something fun!
Friday, February 26, 2010
Thursday, February 25, 2010
On the menu: Last night was a chef salad. Tonight I think I'll make another meat and three. I have a butternut squash that I've been looking forward to cooking. I've never tried it before so I'm a little nervous how it will turn out...
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
I still don't have a pic of Tristan going to her dance. I told John to remind her mom to send him one today. Hopefully I'll be able to post one tomorrow!
In respect to the job situation... I'm sure I will find something sooner or later. We have enough to cover us easily for 6 months. So I'm not really worried about that. It's just that was the first job I was excited about. And before this little stint of unemployment I had been offered a position at every interview I attended. I'm not digging the rejection! I know that the economy is terrible right now and there are A LOT of accountants looking for jobs but I still don't like the rejection.
I'm going to dye my hair today! I put a gloss on it one time but today I'm actually using a color. I'm going dark! I'll post a pic later.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I'll be honest...Yesterday was a pretty tough day for John and for me. John is having a tough time with the car situation. He CANNOT make a decision! He agonized for weeks over the lights that will go in the kitchen. I mean AGONIZED! He finally came to me and said he couldn't do it. It was left to me. I think he may get to that point with the car. He asks me to look at no less than 15 cars per day. I told him to narrow it down to 2 or 3 and I would help him make the decision.
I had a hard day because I found out they hired someone else for the job I wanted. The guy said he thinks I should do something more tax related. I guess he was scared that I would come in and work for a little while and then decide to go back to tax. I've been asked about that two or three times in interviews. It makes sense. I have a Master's in Tax and tax jobs usually make more money. But I don't want just a straight tax job. I would love to find a mixture. That looks to be more difficult than I thought.
- Fertility News: I also got my blood work back. My FSH is still 11.6. It has to be below 12.5 to stay in the shared risk plan but I've read many places that say anything above 10 means pre-ovarian failure. Also, I only had 9 antral follicles where I need 12 to stay in shared risk. I hope that after I've been on the BCPs a while and my cysts go away, that a few more will pop up. I'm just really scared this isn't going to work. So yesterday was another come-to-terms day that I may never have a child. I have these days every now and then where I truly try to imagine my life without a child. It's weird but every time it's a little easier. When John and I first got married I thought I would die if I couldn't have a child. Then time moved along and I decided that I wouldn't die but I would always be sad. Then more time passed I thought that I could still be happy most of the time but would always feel like something was missing. I'm to the point now where I know I'll be sad every now and then but I truly think I'll be ok. If you had told me 2 1/2 years ago that I would be saying that I would be ok not to have children I would NOT have believed you. But I guess it's the brain's way of coping. I'm not giving up yet. I'm going to give it all I've got! But if it doesn't work... at least I know I'll be fine. :)
Monday, February 22, 2010
Sunday we sold the Camry to Carmax. Mom is letting us borrow her car for the week so hopefully John will find something soon. He has narrowed the search to 2 different cars. They're in Georgia so we have to make sure it's really what he wants before we drive there to get it!
- Fertility News: I went to the doc this morning for my baseline. I had 2 cysts on each ovary and only 4 antral follies on the right and 5 on the left. I really need a total of at least 12. I'm hoping the cysts were blocking a couple. She gave me another Nuvaring to start taking tonight and I made an appt to go over my calendar on 3/9. I'll probably be on the BCPs for 3 or 4 weeks and then start my next IVF cycle. All I found out today is that I am doing a Lupron protocol. They're basically just adding another injection at the beginning of my cycle to try to keep the follies from growing too fast. They had a REALLY hard time getting the blood today. It took 3 sticks, lots of digging and 2 nurses to finally get it. I guess I'm lucky they've been getting it on the first try the past few months!
Saturday, February 20, 2010
While she was getting ready she got an unexpected knock on the door. It was her date bringing her a dozen yellow roses! Mini panic attack - She's too young to be getting roses from boys!!!! But it was very sweet and I'm sure made her feel special. After she got ready John showed up for some pics. Then they went over to her date's house for more pictures. Finally it was time for the dance. Apparently the boys and girls stayed on opposite sides of the room until the last dance. That's when Tristan had her first slow dance with a boy. She's growing up so fast!
Today John and I are going to look for a car. He has been driving me crazy! He may be the pickiest man EVER! Hopefully we will find something quickly so there aren't too many arguments!
Tonight I have a slumber party with LL, Jess and Rach! We're going out to eat and then staying at Rach's new place! I'm so excited!
Friday, February 19, 2010
Below she is pushing her cart and watching a little TV. She loves her shopping cart. This one is of us snuggling last night when she was very sleepy. She went right to sleep when I put her down.
- Fertility News: I'm calling Dr. H today to see what the board said about my next IVF try. Mother Nature came calling this morning. She's early! I'm not supposed to start until Sunday so I'm not sure what's going on with that. Bummer! Another month bites the dust. Check back later for the update.
- Update - A nurse called to say that I am approved for another IVF. She wasn't the IVF nurse so she couldn't really tell me anything about the new protocol. But it is good news that they think there is something else that will work. My appt is Monday morning so I should get more specifics then. I'm sure I'll have to be on birth control pills for a month... joy...joy!
Thursday, February 18, 2010
She should be up from her nap around at around 2 or 2:30. I will have to take her back to my house then to start getting ready for my interview. That will be interesting!
I have some pictures from yesterday but I forgot to bring my camera to Jess's today. I'll try to post them tonight. I went to bed shortly after Emma last night because I was spent! I don't know how Jess does this every day! No, I'm not rethinking motherhood. I just know I need to build some muscles before I carry around a 200lb (really 25lb but she felt like 200lbs after 5 hours) baby. And hopefully I won't be giving birth to a 25lb baby either!! That would NOT be good!
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
Now that I'm in the clear and Jess shouldn't be reading my blog again until she gets back... I have an interview Thursday afternoon at 4:15. John's going to leave work early to come home and take care of Emma while I go. I knew she would feel bad if I told her so she's not finding out until she gets back! I'm so sneaky! It's with a not-for-profit company that's downtown. I'm not super excited about it being downtown but if it's a good job I'll be ok with it.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Guess what... I'm keeping Emma for at least 2 whole days!! Maybe 3!! I wish it was because Josh and Jess were going on some romantic rendezvous but that's not the case. They're going to Charleston tomorrow morning for her grandfather's funeral and then coming back either late Thursday night or Friday. Please pray for them to have a safe trip and for God to comfort her and her family.
Also, John took his car to Carmax yesterday to see what they would offer. They offered him more than expected so it looks like we may be getting a new car soon (or at least a "new to us" car). He's looking at used BLACK Maximas, Audis, and Caddys.
Finally, I would like to thank Emily for my handmade dishrag and Emma for my V'day card and suckers! Emily makes lots of goodies for kids but this is the first time I have gotten one of her treasures.
On the menu:
Mexican Chicken Casserole
One layer of crescent rolls, a layer of chicken, sour cream, rotel, and cheese (all mixed together), and then a final layer of crescent rolls. YUM!
Update: The nurse called to say that the board meeting was cancelled last Thursday so my chart will go to the board this Thursday. A few more days of waiting...
Monday, February 15, 2010
Sunday, February 14, 2010
I told John not to get me anything for V'day which means I'm expecting a little something. If there is a male reading this let me explain how that works. I want a little more than I ask for. So if I ask for nothing then I will be happy with a little something. If I asked for a little something; I'd be happy with a medium sized something and so on. I know it's a little crazy but stay with me here. I like to be a little spoiled. If I ask for a little less than I want but I get more... he's spoiling me. So (this is the good part for the guys) I wanted a little something, I got a little something but in my mind he's spoiling me b/c I asked for nothing.
One of my favorite Carrie Bradshaw quotes:
"Some people are settling down, some people are settling and some people refuse to settle for anything less than butterflies."
Thanks to my wonderful hubby for helping me find my butterflies! Here's hoping you get a butterfly or two today too!
Friday, February 12, 2010
Yesterday I got a call from my recruiter. That's a perk of being an accountant... we get recruiters. She knows of two positions that should become available soon. So I may have two more interviews for sometime next week. Also, Dr H was supposed to call me today or yesterday but due to the "blizzard" they probably closed the office early. It looks like I won't get a call until Monday.
Hope everyone is staying warm!
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Leah sent me flowers!! The note said "Just because I freaking love you... like really love you! Continued prayers going up!" I'm tearing up now just telling you about it. So SWEET! I don't think I've ever actually received flowers via courier. For the first two or three months I was dating John, he would bring me a flower to every date. He was so romantic and swept me off my feet! So I'm not trying to diss John by saying that he's never sent me flowers.... he's given me many, many flowers!
Thank you so much LL and thank you to all of my friends who have been there and continue to be there for me!
Wednesday, February 10, 2010
The pumps that were regularly $69.99 that I got for $19.99. That's 70% off!
The coat that was regularly $280 that I got for $39.99. That's 85% off!! How am I expected to walk away from those kinds of deals?? They were practically paying me to take them!! Right? I did control myself some though because there were two other coats that were super cute and I didn't get them. They were my fave colors... one was black and white and the other was red! Maybe I should go back... No, no I have control! I felt so good walking out of there with my purchases. All I needed was a little retail therapy to pull me out of the funk!
I also got my hair cut yesterday. I went to the Aveda training institute so it only cost $15. Not too shabby. And she did a pretty good job. No complaints!
On the menu:
Orange Chicken a la Jessica Durr a la Rachel Ray
Can't wait to try your recipe Jess!
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
Yesterday morning I did our taxes and we will be getting some money back! YAY! We adjusted John's withholdings this year because last year we got a LOT of money back. At first this seems great but if you really think about it that means that we gave the government an interest free loan for the year. It's much better to break even.
Today I'm excited to be getting a haircut! I think it's been about a year! WHOA! Don't worry... I'm not chopping it all off again. I just need about an inch or two.
On the menu:
A large pot of taco soup and mexican cornbread!
Monday, February 8, 2010
I'm still disappointed of course. I planned for the fact that my eggs may be bad or that I may have 12 follicles but only 5 eggs. For some reason I didn't think that I may be cancelled and never make it to retrieval! I plan for everything. I don't know why that didn't enter my mind.
Last night we went to the Annual Patten Butt-Off. It was a lot of fun. Several people made some boston butts and we all judged them during halftime. They were quite tasty!
Friday, February 5, 2010
Thank you so much for the love, support and prayers! I can't tell you what it means to me to have so many people in my corner!
To sum it up: 1 mature folly on the right (the good side) and 1 almost mature folly on the left with 6 very small ones lingering. Also my lining was only 7mm. It's supposed to be around 8mm for IVF so that's not good either. But 7mm is actually not so bad for me. Most of the time mine hangs around 6mm so I'm cool with that.
I'm heading down to T-town today to have lunch with my mom and sister. No cleaning and organizing for me today! YAY! John's getting Tristan tomorrow for the day so I might go get a pedicure or something to give them some alone time. Ooooo I almost forgot. Jess and Carrie went with me last night to the grand opening for the Aveda training institute. I made an appt to get my haircut for next Tuesday (they only charge $15!) But the best part is they only charge $14 for a pedicure! Ooh la la... count me in!
Thursday, February 4, 2010
bad wife - He has to take ONE pill a day! That's it! Here I am jabbing myself in the stomach every night, going to doctor's appt and getting blood drawn, and I still have a headache from the hormones. Now he wants accolades for remembering to swallow a pill!!!
good wife - Calm down. You're the one who wanted to do this. You knew it would be tough but you wanted to do it anyway. Suck it up and deal.
bad wife - But it's not fair! He should have to suffer too! He should at least have to know what's going on so he can help me carry this burden. Isn't that why you get married??
good wife - Shame on you! You married him because you love him. And because you love him you should never want him to suffer. You should shield and protect him from this. Now slap a smile on your face and shut up!
Good wife won last night but I can't promise that she always will. Bad wife is getting stronger! Hopefully I'll be done with the injections before she gets out of control!
Happy Birthday Grandmama!!
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
The bit of good news is that the follicle is on the RIGHT side! I'm actually going to ovulate on my right side this month! What the heck?!? SO - if she cancels my IVF I could still get pregnant by doing IUI which is WAY cheaper. So there is still some hope. I assume they would have to refund my money if IVF was cancelled.
I was pretty upset about it at first but I'm trying to stay positive. There's nothing I can do about it so I'm trying to relax and roll with the punches! I'll update as soon as I know something.
Both of my interviews went pretty well. I don't think the one from yesterday is for me. But today's interview was better. It's a good company with great benefits. The people seemed nice and I would actually be doing real accounting. They hope to be done with interviews by next Wed so I should know something by the end of next week.
On the menu:
Anger with a side of a sadness (j/k) haha
The curry was good last night. I'm thinking of something a little lighter tonight. Maybe a buffalo chicken salad. Yum!
Update: Negative Nancy is gone and Positive Polly is back! The nurse finally called to say that my blood work looked good so they will let me continue with the IVF cycle. I go back on Friday morning to see if any new follicles popped up! Fingers, toes and eyes crossed!
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
I have an interview today at 3 and another one tomorrow after my doctor's appt. The one today I'm not so sure about. It's really a bookkeeping job with maybe a splash of accounting. I am excited about the one tomorrow though. It seems like it would be a good job. It's preparing monthly financial statements and more accounting related work. I'm sure I could talk them into letting me do a little tax work as well. They seem really laid back. The lady I talked to is a friend of one of my "pit" girls so I think she would tell me if it was a terrible job. She said she is really happy there and that they're very family friendly with little overtime. Sounds good to me!
On the menu:
Last night we had meat and 3. I George Forman'd some chicken and made smashed potatoes, sweet peas, and skillet corn (from my Aunt Ann's garden). It was pretty darn tasty! John poured about a gallon of gravy on top of it all so I'm not sure that he could appreciate my intricate seasoning.
Tonight I'm making chicken and rice curry! I LOVE curry and so does John. Feel free to come over if you're in the mood for something spicy!
Monday, February 1, 2010
1. Make breakfast for the hubs every morning.
2. Clean for most of the morning
3. Afternoon = Project time!
4. Cook dinner every night
You may be wondering what "project time" is. WELL - there are some things that get pushed aside when both spouses work. Even spouses who are as clean and Type A as John and myself! Most of my friends would never believe the terror that lies in my house! Here's a peak at the skeletons in my closet!
The pantry that needs to be cleaned out and organized... The medicine cabinet that needs to be cleaned out. Or *gasp* our bedroom closet!