I haven't been emotionally invested in this cycle. I've tried to stay positive but deep down I knew it wouldn't work. I was going through the motions of the cycle but I didn't really believe in it. So when I went to the doctor this morning I fully expected to see a huge follicle and for my cycle to be cancelled. I was not prepared for her to find 4 follicles (all around 10-12mm) on the right and 6 follicles (biggest at 13mm) on the left! I was down right shocked even! I looked at the nurse and said, "They're all about the same size and there's 10 of them? Are you freaking serious?" She looked pretty confused. I mean that's what is supposed to happen. It's just that things that are supposed to happen don't usually happen for me. As soon as she left the room I burst into tears. It's very hard to let in the hope. I have been on this roller coaster so long. Hope followed by disappointment. It's the story of my infertility journey. I am still very cautious. Immediately I started rationalizing that this was just one hurdle. I still have to make it to retrieval, eggs have to be good, they have to be fertilized and then transferred back into me. That's a lot of steps. But the first obstacle has been passed. I now have to put one foot in front of the other until all of these steps are accomplished.
I don't have the bloodwork results yet but she said they should be fine based on the u/s. If they are then I go back for another u/s and bloodwork on Sunday. If the follicles are at the retrieval stage (most of them around 17-18mm) then I will get an hcg trigger shot Sunday night and 36 hours later will be retrieval. For that they'll put me in twilight and then insert a long needle that will pop the follicles and suck out the eggs. Sounds fun right? YIKES!
Stats: E2 = 386 & P4 = .6
Thanks so much for all of the positive thoughts and prayers! I love you guys!!