It is with a very sad heart that I announce that this pregnancy is over. My beta dropped to 23 so I was told to stop all medications.
We're ok. I'm kind of glad I researched a little bit so I could start preparing myself. I think John's taking it a little harder than I am... I'm pretty numb.
I feel terrible for dragging all of you through this. My intentions were that if it worked you would be as excited and thrilled as us because you knew how hard it was. And if it didn't work then you would understand why we may decide to stop trying. If you didn't ride every wave with us and go through every gut wrenching fall then you might not get it. You might think, "Well they only tried one IVF. Maybe they just don't want a baby enough if they won't try another one." Since you took this journey with us you now know that it was 6 months of torture! It was injections, illness, a hospitalization, mountain top highs and devastating lows. Not to mention that we paid over $10,000 to do it! Just for an ATTEMPT to do something most women can do without a problem. It's not fair! I don't know if I can go through all of this again for an ATTEMPT!
You guys have been there every step of the way and we thank you so much for that! If anything came out of this experience it's the knowledge of how much John and I are loved. I know without a doubt that I can call on so many people who will drop everything to be there for me. Fortunately for you guys, John and I are both very internal people. We just want to mourn privately and move on.
Thank you so much for all of the prayers, thoughts and love!