First let me thank Julie for updating you guys so you didn't have to wait until 6pm to get the results. However, she painted a much rosier picture than I would have painted.
Here's the story:
While I was getting my blood drawn I asked the nurse what an "acceptable" beta would be. She said... "Anything above 5 is pregnant but between 5 and 20 is not very good and may indicate a chemical pregnancy." I just knew my number was going to be below 20 so I was pretty down. Then she said, "They want to see above 50." So I asked what happens if it's between 20 and 50. She said that it could be fine but they're still cautious.
I left the office scared, nervous and feeling pretty down about my chances. God didn't give up on me though. I got a call from the IVF nurse and she said my beta was 38.5. I had this sequence of emotions in about 1 second... relieved, thrilled, shock, wait a minute that's not 50, nervousness, fear. I told her I couldn't wait until Thursday, which is when she wanted me to come back, so we settled on Tuesday. I asked her if she was disappointed by my number and she said it was fine and not to worry. Hmmmm. Fine. I don't like Fine. I wanted to hear Great, Fabulous, Wonderful but I got Fine. But fine is better than not fine.
I called John and he was happy but not quite as excited as I wanted him to be. I can understand though. We've been here twice before. Our two previous pregnancies=no babies. I think that's why I'm remaining so guarded right now too. I am thrilled but cautious.
So that's the real story. I can't remove the asterisk from pregnant yet but hopefully I will be able to Tuesday.
Thank you guys so much for all of the prayers! I can't believe the overwhelming love and support that has flooded me over the past few days! I praise the Lord for our good news today and I praise Him for all of you!