Friday, April 29, 2011


I just realized that I haven't posted about the IUI. It went really well. I was instructed to be there an hour and a half after John left his "specimen". When I got there the nurse said something about John and how he was nervous. He's such a good husband. I know it's less than desirable to go perform at a doctor's office. Talk about pressure! But he did great and his boys got rave reviews from the doctor. After the procedure I asked the NP if there is anything I can do to aid in fertilization and implantation. She said "Pray." The only thing I can do is pray. Check. Got that one down. She then gave me the super sad, pity eyes and I lost it. I started crying right there on the table unable to move. She got me a tissue and consoled me for a bit to which I replied, "I'm sorry. It's just been a long four years." And it has! Sometimes the emotions sneak up on me. I feel like I a do a pretty good job of staying strong and keeping a positive attitude. But there are times I am overwhelmed with grief, sadness, anger and frustration. She said I'm doing everything I can do and that she is so proud of me for being such a trooper. What choice do I have? I guess I could give up but I'm not quite ready for that yet. I don't have much fight left in me but I do have a little longer.

We don't have much going on this weekend... I'm trying to relax, de-stress and stay positive. I thought about driving down to Tuscaloosa with a carload of water and non-perishable food items but my mom said I shouldn't. She said it would just upset me. There are lots of places around here accepting donations so I'll probably do that instead.

Please continue to pray for the many cities in Alabama that were demolished by the terrible storms.


Thursday, April 28, 2011


Home to the University of Alabama, home to most of my family, my home... has been devastated by deadly tornadoes. Thankfully ALL of my family is safe, uninjured and happy to be spared by this vicious storm. My Nana's house did have two very large oak trees fall but, luckily, she has been living with my Aunt Pam for quite some time so she wasn't there. I can't believe all of the pictures and stories coming from my hometown. Please say a prayer for all those who lost loved ones and everything they owned. Here are a couple of pictures...

A picture of people walking to find shelter. Most homes that were left standing don't have power or water. The water treatment facility was damaged so there's a shortage.

This is a before and after shot. At the top you can see a McDonalds on the left and a Taco Casa on the right. On the bottom you can see that 15th Street was pretty much leveled. All that's left is rubble for many businesses and home in this area.

This is a picture of a neighborhood that was destroyed.

This is a shot of tornado making it's way through the state. They said it was a mile wide!

Our area didn't have much damage. We were straddled by two tornadoes; one above us and one below us. I am so thankful that we weren't in the path.


Wednesday, April 27, 2011

Sticky lil Bean

Today's the day! John is headed to the doctor's office right now and I go in at 9:30. I am a little bummed that he has a meeting at 10:00 so he won't be able to stay for the procedure. Looks like I'm flying solo. Dr. H is very personable though and always hugs me and tells me she loves me. She's great.

I hope you'll pray with me that everything goes well today and that the little Eggie fertilizes! Then we'll pray that it's a sticky lil bean that snuggles in and hangs out for 9 months!

I had to take a higher dosage of hcg for the trigger this time so I won't be able to test until 5/12. That seems so far away! I can't even sneak a home test because it may give me a false positive. Wouldn't that be terrible? Even more terrible than waiting 15 days!


Monday, April 25, 2011


Guess what!!! I have a mature follicle on the RIGHT side! Woohoo! I think I've only been able to say that 3 or 4 times in the past couple of years. Here's a picture of my one lonely follicle that will hopefully release a little soon-to-be Baby Z. (Hint: It's the big, black circle in the picture.)

The left side had three mature follicles keeping each other company. Too bad those little eggies will have no where to go once they're released.

More good news was that my lining, which is always thin, was .81cm today. They want it to be .8 or higher so I finally made it! Yay! All we have left to do is for John to give me the trigger shot tonight and we'll have an IUI Wednesday morning. Then we wait, hope and pray.


Sunday, April 24, 2011

Happy Easter

Happy Easter everybody! Hopefully the Easter Bunny left me some sticky eggs in my ovaries!

We had a pretty good day at the Z Household. We went to church this morning and then came home and spent lots of time on our poor, neglected yard. I planted my tomatoes while the Hubs cut the grass and and laid out some pine straw. Then I threw an Easter Egg Hunt for the girls next door.

Yesterday we met Jess, Josh, Josh's mom and Emma for an Easter Egg Hunt at the church. It was so much fun! Here are a few pictures of our sweet little goddaughter.

Tomorrow I have another appointment with Dr. H. I don't think I'll be ready to trigger yet but I'll keep you posted.

Thank you to our Lord Jesus Christ who died to wash away our sins!


Saturday, April 23, 2011

Day 7

My scan went well this morning. My lining was not compromised by the adenomyosis but it was a little thin. I'll probably need to add estrogen for that. I'm still waiting for the call. Also I now have a total of 7 follicles. Of course, they showed up on the left side though. I now have 6 follicles on the left and a lonely one on the right. The good news is that the one on the right is in the lead as far as size goes. Hopefully that will continue.


Friday, April 22, 2011

Day 6

I never received a phone call yesterday so I continued with the injections. I called them this morning and a nurse didnt call me back until 5:40. They must have been busy! She said I could take another injection tonight and then I should come to the office for another scan tomorrow morning rather than Sunday. I'll keep you posted.


Thursday, April 21, 2011

Day 5

I had my Dr. appt this morning.

My limitations were as follows:
No more than 3 follicles on the right and no more than 8 in total. If I went over those numbers then she would suggest canceling the cycle or converting to IVF. So I've been praying for 3 on the right and 4 or less on the left.

The results:
I had one on the right and four on the left. One is definitely better than NONE so I was ok with the results. The only problem is that I have a large mass in my uterus. She said it appears the adenomyosis is back. The NP said it was outside of the lining right now but the estrogen I'm taking will make it grow. She's nervous that it will overtake my inner lining and then there will be nowhere for a baby to implant. She was supposed to get Dr. H to call and tell me our options but I never got a call. So I continued the shots tonight even though I'm not sure if she'll cancel the cycle. Hopefully I'll hear something tomorrow.

Happy Birthday to John's brother Chris!! We hope you're having a great day!


Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Day 3

I don't know if I have talked about this yet but I am taking the exact same medications as I did with my last IVF cycle. I decided to look back to last March to see my posts about that cycle. I forgot a lot of stuff that goes with this protocol. I am going to be bloated and my ovaries are going to be huge! Last time John massaged my back every night and gave me my shots. This time we're just going through the motions. You can look back here to see the wild ride if you forgot too!

Looking back over all of those posts and all of those emotions drains me. It seems like that was forever ago. I'm glad I read it though because I want to invest a little more into this cycle. This protocol got me some eggs on the right side last time and there's no reason to believe it won't again.


Monday, April 18, 2011

Day 2 - Check

Two days down! I'm getting pretty excited to see what's going on in there Thursday. Hopefully I'm growing some babies with that right ovary!

P90X Update - My husband is looking fabulous! He doesn't want me to talk about it on the blog but I can't help myself. He looks GOOD! I mean, he has always been very fit, but now he's definitely more toned. I, on the other hand, am barely seeing a difference. I'm sure it has to do with the fact that I only do 20-25 minutes every morning instead of the whole hour. His results are really making me want to the whole hour. We have 30 days under our belts and 60 to go. Maybe when we finish the whole 90 days he'll let me post our before and after shots.... maybe.

Happy Birthday to Mom Z!!
We miss you so much and can't wait to see you again this summer!


Sunday, April 17, 2011

Day 1

Day 1 of stimming down... only 5-10 days left. I have an appt on Thursday to see how the ovaries are doing and if there's anything going on on that right side. I should also get a better estimate for how many days I'll need to stim. It varies with every cycle.

Happy Birthday LL!
I love, love, love you!


Saturday, April 16, 2011

Good Times

Thursday night LL came to town and stayed the night with us. She didn't get here until 7PM and then had to be the airport at 5AM so we didn't get to spend much time together. Hey, a little bit is better than nothing. This is a picture of her laughing at John. A HUGE moth flew into the house and you know I felt sorry for it. So my wonderful hubs was chasing it and corralling it out the door. It wouldn't go so he finally had to catch it and throw it out. But the bugger flew back in TWICE! It was pretty funny.
This is a picture of our night out on my birthday. We ordered five rolls of sushi and we were stuffed! It was delicious though.
Finally, I leave you with a picture of John with some pretty funny facial hair. He trimmed his beard for a soccer game to give the fellas a laugh. I got a pretty good chuckle too!


Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Game On

My seventh injectable cycle has been approved! I had my suppression check today and everything was within normal limits! Yahoo!

For those of you who care:
E2 = 34.5
TSH = 1.5
Free T4 = 1.2
CBC = All normal

I start injections Sunday!


Tuesday, April 12, 2011

T-Town Tourney

We had a fun weekend in Tuscaloosa with lots of softball. Here are some highlights.

This is a video of her hitting. She had some much better hits but I didn't get them on video.

This is a video of her catching and stopping a girl from coming home.

Here's a picture of the whole team with their second place trophy. You can tell they're all a bit disappointed.

Fertility News: The Lupron injections have been going well. I go to the doctor tomorrow morning for a suppression check. If all looks good then I'll start stimulation on Monday. Yay!


Bad Weather

I planned to write a nice post last night of our weekend with some videos of Tristan. However, storms swept across the south last night causing a cable outage. Hopefully there will be clear skies tonight so you can see her skills. They came in 2nd place which is great but they were pretty bummed. Of course they wanted that 1st place trophy!


Friday, April 8, 2011

Birthday Pictures!

When I got home this afternoon the Hubs surprised me with this:

Isn't he sweet! Also here are some pictures from last night.

Kelli's Table Scape

The cute wine stoppers Kelli and Christie got me for birthday.

Me and Stacey

My delicious birthday cake.

The maker of the cake.

Jenn L and I blowing out the candles.

I can't find a good picture of me and the sis so I'll have to take one this weekend. Tonight John and I are going to Chuck's (yum) and then we're leaving at 8 am tomorrow headed to T-town. I hope you guys have a great weekend! Thanks for all of the calls, emails, posts and cards!


Happy Birthday to Me

Well I wasn't able to post a lovely picture of my SIS last night because the hubs was hogging the computer when I got home. I'll try to post one tonight. I also want to post some pics from supper club last night. It was tons of fun, as usual.


Thursday, April 7, 2011

Happy Birthday Julie

Happy birthday to my beautiful, intelligent, kind, OLDER sister, Julie! She was a bit disgruntled that I posted her age a few days ago. She likes to tell people that she's the younger one. I don't have a pic of her on my iPhone so I'll post one tonight after Supper Club. You can be the judge of younger vs older sister.


Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Happy Anniversary

Happy Anniversary to my Mom and Dad! They've been married 43 years today! (Sorry Mom and Dad! I previously posted 44 years but I was mistaken!)


Monday, April 4, 2011

Spring in Alabama

I just love Spring in Alabama... so sad that it doesn't last very long. Here are some pictures from this weekend.This is a rose from my rose bush.

Our neighbor's backyard.

Looks like Carly is showing Lexi who's boss. Yes she's on top of Lexi holding her down. Too cute!

Fertility News: Tonight I started my Lupron injections. Yay! This cycle is finally underway! I'll be on this for two weeks and then I can start the stimulation process.


Friday, April 1, 2011

Birth Month

Another year has come and gone bringing the total number of years I’ve been on this planet to 34... ahhhh! Mid 30’s! It’s also my sister’s birth month (she’s the day before mine) and she will be 39! Whew- That makes me feel a little better! Haha! I certainly don’t feel like I’m in my mid 30’s. I often still feel like a teenager skipping around and giggling every time someone says “duty.” And my sister definitely doesn’t look 39. It’s so hard to believe that she’ll be 40 next year! 40 used to seem so old.... 34 used to seem so old!
My past few birthdays have been all over the place. The even numbered birthdays have been great but the odd numbered ones were the worst I have ever experienced. Again, this enhances my love of even numbers. Let’s recap the last few years, shall we?

28 was the year I met John. I came up to Birmingham to go out with some friends for my birthday and destiny brought John into my life. So, yes, that was a FABULOUS birthday!

30 was a great year too! I was planning my wedding to my wonderful man and thinking about our exciting honeymoon to Italy... a place I had always wanted to go. We went out with lots friends the night of my birthday and had a great time.

Then came 31. It wins, hands down, as the worst birthday I’ve ever had. The beginning of the month started out wonderfully. I was early into a pregnancy and had just seen the heartbeat. Such a miracle. It all fell apart on April 7th, the day before my birthday. An ultrasound determined that our baby had stopped growing. That was less than a year into our TTC journey so I wasn’t as open about things. Only a handful of people knew we were expecting. I was so thankful that night that I hadn’t told my friends because John had to leave to go coach a soccer game and I had plans to go out to dinner with the KPMG girls. Even though I broke down as I was headed there and as soon as I left the restaurant, while I was there I slapped on a smile and laughed my cares away. It was exactly what I needed to get my mind off of my heartache for a few hours. I will forever be grateful to those girls. They helped me get through the worst night of my life.

32 was a good year. John tried really hard to make up for the previous year so he was extremely sweet and attentive. So were all of my friends and family.

Then I got smacked in the face by 33. I had just undergone my first IVF. I thought I may find out I was pregnant around my birthday but NO! I developed an infection and was hospitalized for 5 days. I didn’t even get to transfer my babies! I was released the day before my birthday and still felt terrible for a week after that. My friends, family and John tried to make it special but my heart wasn’t in it. I was depressed and sad and angry and frustrated and hurt.... you get the idea.

Now it’s time for 34 and hopefully this will be a fabulous one! I already have plans with the Supper Club Girls Thursday night, I’m going to dinner with the hubs Friday night and will probably go visit my family Saturday and Sunday since Tristan has her softball tournament in Tuscaloosa that weekend. Now I just need to schedule some time with the KPMG Girl’s and we’ll be good to go!


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