Something clicked yesterday. I checked my email and noticed I had a comment on my post (thanks for all of the thoughts and prayers yesterday) so I decided to re-read my post. I was so upset while I was writing it that I decided I better give it a look to make sure it made sense. While I was reading it I made the decision that I'm done wallowing in self pity about this. I have mourned and it's time to move on. Once I made that decision I read the comment from my dear reader who recently adopted and the comment from my friend who received her lovely daughter through adoption. I know that once I have that baby in my life it won't matter that he/she doesn't have our genetics. I will love that child with everything I have no matter what.
Then I had another moment. I realized now that we've let go of this dream we can start building our new dream. And apparently there are some options out there that could put a baby in our house in only a few months! It is so weird to go from infertility (the endless unknowing) to this new dream where we have a REAL time-line. It may take as long as two years or as short as a few months but no matter what... we will have a child. Amazing.
Today is the love of my life's birthday! Happy Birthday to my wonderful husband! I didn't think it was possible to love someone as I much I love him. Just a look from him can make me melt.