May I have your attention please. John and I have made a life changing decision. When we return from Canada we are going to proceed with adoption. This is a new and exciting experience for us. I can't speak for John but I have many emotions going on right now.... overwhelmed, relieved, nervous, scared, excited, and exhilarated just to name a few. Please pray that we make the right decisions and that our baby finds us soon.
I'm overwhelmed by all of the options and decisions that need to be made. I feel like I know most everything about infertility but next to nothing about adoption. I'm nervous about not passing the home study because of the lupus which, by the way, I'm going to the doctor June 21st to see if he'll take away that diagnosis. It's obvious that I don't really have it. I'm scared that it will take years for a birth mother to pick us. I'm sad for our soon-to-be-child that one day he/she will feel like his/her birth parents abandoned him/her. I'm also sad for the birth mother who is giving up her child. I'm flabbergasted by the amount of money adoption is going to cost. I'm thrilled that we'll get to realize our dream of extending our family. I'm excited to have a child of my own no matter how that child comes into our lives. I read a great quote but now can't find it so I'll have to paraphrase...
Our plans for having a child didn't change; just the method of delivery.